♥Nothing is impossible♥

Yesterday was the first after months, I cried myself to sleep. I dont know if this pain i'm feeling is because of him..or the loneliness that i'm feeling right now..
Anyway, i do know its not gonna last long. Clearly everyone, i mean most people, that is around me doesnt approve about the both of us. I do however understands why they dun approve on us. They just want the best for me. Tho i can't lie but to say the fact that he is in fact quite a nice guy. Its just a waste that our cultural difference kind of makes it impossible for us to be together and blew everything off.
Despite that, though i may know a few other guys, i dont seem to feel the connection. Or maybe its just me who is making the barrier.. Whatever it is right now i know i'm missing him a lot. Just wanna hear him and ask bout how he's doing. Just want him back and i hate not to being uncontactable for days eventhough i can clearly see that he's actually contactable.
Darn. What have i got myself into..? Am i actually starting to fall for this guy? Or am i just feeling this way because i have no one else but him that can shower me with love n care..? Or is it the pain from my past relationship that makes me feel scared of getting hurt again and doesnt want to be left alone by another person?
But i must admit that i am scared of being left and alone all over again. I suppose that may explains the hurt i'm feeling all these while..